My husband has PTSD, I don't know if I can handle it anymore...?

I have been diagnosed with combat related PTSD and I don't act like that. Why? Because I went and got help. The VA and private shrinks helped me to the nth degree. I'm on anti-depressants which help a great deal and my life is on track. As was mentioned, he needs to go to the VA. They will help him. As for you? I can't tell you what to do but at first glance you seem pretty Intelligent. You'll figure it out. Personally speaking, according to your question you deserve better. But that is only an opinion.